My dream is to travel the world.
But I didn’t always have the courage to do it.
Like so many young college students, I found myself lost after graduation. On one hand, I really wanted to travel the world, but on the other, I felt the right thing to do was to get a decent job, save money, and settle down, you know, all the things that society tells us are “normal.”
Except, I had a really hard time being normal. I tried pursuing what I studied, I tried working in various jobs, I tried so many different things that I started to lose myself. I would come home every day feeling drained and no matter what, my mind was always on traveling.
Then one day, I just got tired of being scared, booked myself a one-way ticket to Asia, and never looked back.
This trip gave me the strength and confidence that I never knew I had.
During this trip, I learned a very valuable lesson: ALL of the fears I had about pursuing my dreams were made up by me. When I came home, I decided I’ll no longer let fear rule my life.
In the following months, I made a series of life-changing decisions. I took a job that I enjoyed much more, I moved across the country, and my identity slowly continued to change.
But all of that didn’t come without a price. I struggled to embrace my new identity, my parents disapproved of my decisions, and the most devastating change was that my long-term relationship ended. To say that it was heartbreaking would be an understatement.
Needless to say, it was quite a difficult time in my life but I used it to rediscover who I was. I let go of all my fears and gave myself complete permission to explore my hobbies. It was during this time that I discovered I really loved to write.
In 2016, I moved back home and became a freelance writer. And now I live in Spain as a part-time writer and English teacher.
I don’t know what the future holds and I still have fears and doubts. The only difference between who I am today and who I was three years ago is that I let myself feel those emotions and remind myself to take it one step at a time. Dreams don’t happen overnight.
If you’re struggling, feeling lost, or scared to go after your dream, you are not alone. Your fears and your doubts are valid but most importantly you have the strength to overcome them. Let go of your fears slowly and become the person that you’ve always wanted to be. I’ll be right next to you.